It has been a trying couple of weeks for me.
Being denied for jobs, dealing with guy drama, struggling between wanting to lock myself in my room with a pizza, or get back in the gym. Sometimes it all hits you at once and you’re sitting there like, what the hell do I do?
Everything seems so backwards. I’m literally dodging every decent guy that asks me out or pays me a compliment, and the one person I actually want attention from could not care less if I never spoke to him again. Or at least that’s what he makes it seem like every single day that we continue to talk. Side note: I’m not asking for advice. I repeat, not asking for advice. We’ve all been in this situation before, including me, and we all know that we do stupid things when our hearts and minds are clouded. Just let me be reckless. Moving on…
I love my job, but I most certainly do not want to be doing it forever. I mean, I feel like I’ve got a lot to offer…I am for sure a people person (despite the fact that I hate people) and I’ve got a piece of paper that says that I’m so smart, the government decided to loan me forty thousand dollars. Wow, am I right?! But all jokes aside, I’m getting tired of being able to get everyone else a job with my resume expertise, yet I can’t even land a decent paying job myself. I’m either under qualified or over qualified. Story. Of. My. Life. So I guess I’ll just keep trying and maybe I’ll have my own place by the time I’m thirty. #goals #cryinginside
Also, my pants seem to be getting tighter and tighter for some reason? I’m thinking about devoting part of my blog to holding me accountable for going to the gym and getting back into shape. Maybe post some new work outs I’ve learned, stories about how once again I avoided eye contact with the gym hottie, and maybe include some of my favorite songs that I listen to while I’m awkwardly doing hip thrusts and tripping on the treadmill? I really want to meal prep, but it’s so damn expensive, and I’m such a picky eater. If anyone wants to train me for nada and/ or make my meals, I’ll pay you in free advertisement and smiles. I have a pair of jeans from high school I’d like to squeeze my peach back into.
On a brighter note, I’m working on something that includes several of my favorite places to go and things to do in Lakeland. I’ll be trying out some Younique lash serum from Ashley Samson, going to some women’s fitness classes at The Balance Culture, and stuffing my face with Bubble Bar Cafe directly after said classes. My other favorites will just have to be a surprise! Speaking of…
I’m also a new Fab Fit Fun partner, which makes me SO happy! It’s like being rewarded for being a reject on The Bachelor, without ever really going on the show (next time, y’all). Now I just need to get my hands on Sugar Bear Hair and DIFF Designer Eyeware and I’ll be all set. I’m actively trying to make a small living out of writing so that I can visit every baseball stadium in the country, and also travel to Italy. And maybe be able to afford a healthy addiction to Botox. But seriously, I can’t wait until my first box comes in so that I can share all of my goodies with you on here! 🙂
Anyways, it’s now nine o’clock and I’ve only left my house once today. I’ve got a bit of the Sunday Scaries, but I am also perfectly content with staying in my sweats for the rest of the night and just taking everything else as it comes.
In the words of my wise (and single) friend, Christina:
“Jobs, boys, skinny jeans, all of it…if it’s not meant to be, it won’t work out no matter how hard we try.”